August 03, 2020
Yesterday, I had enough ...
Enough of me waking up every morning all achy and in pain,
Enough of the scale screaming at me, as the gym is welcoming me back,
Enough of my Mom telling me how I look good, but to eat more,
Enough of my BG not stabilizing, despite watching mostly everything I put in my mouth,
Enough of saying to myself, just give it time and one more day,
Enough of feeling sorry for myself and have a pity party for one,
Enough of thinking I’ve been strong through everything, but at times I put on a good show.
Yesterday, after reliving some hurdles …
After watching my Dad’s health deteriorate over the past years, eventually he couldn’t fight any longer,
After helping my Mom through some major health issues, I see how her spirit remains strong,
After taking care of my own issues last year, the reality I am no longer a young adult, but I am 50,
After all that I have been through in this so called, journey of life, I am still blessed.
Today, I come first …
Today, I hired a personal trainer to help me get back into exercising,
Today, I am ok with telling people “no” because I promised myself something first,
Today, I won’t pretend everything is all right when I know inside is not,
Today, I promised myself to be the best I can be,
Today, I started to change my priorities for tomorrow forward,
Today, I will be a better me for investing more in me,
Today, I give the gift of the present for me to live for today.
I had enough of my past,
After all the obstacles I’ve overcome,
I won’t procrastinate today, as I know what I need to do.
Enough of me waking up every morning all achy and in pain,
Enough of the scale screaming at me, as the gym is welcoming me back,
Enough of my Mom telling me how I look good, but to eat more,
Enough of my BG not stabilizing, despite watching mostly everything I put in my mouth,
Enough of saying to myself, just give it time and one more day,
Enough of feeling sorry for myself and have a pity party for one,
Enough of thinking I’ve been strong through everything, but at times I put on a good show.
Yesterday, after reliving some hurdles …
After watching my Dad’s health deteriorate over the past years, eventually he couldn’t fight any longer,
After helping my Mom through some major health issues, I see how her spirit remains strong,
After taking care of my own issues last year, the reality I am no longer a young adult, but I am 50,
After losing my li’l fur baby girl just shy of 19 years, memories bring smiles but realizing tears still burn,
After adjusting to new meds, which don’t always work as predicted nor make me feel any better,
After having my job spared despite a significant pay cut, seeing many friends part ways, After all that I have been through in this so called, journey of life, I am still blessed.
Today, I come first …
Today, I hired a personal trainer to help me get back into exercising,
Today, I am ok with telling people “no” because I promised myself something first,
Today, I won’t pretend everything is all right when I know inside is not,
Today, I promised myself to be the best I can be,
Today, I started to change my priorities for tomorrow forward,
Today, I will be a better me for investing more in me,
Today, I give the gift of the present for me to live for today.
I had enough of my past,
After all the obstacles I’ve overcome,
I won’t procrastinate today, as I know what I need to do.
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