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08 February 2024

I AM BRokEN

At the start of each day,
    I question if I’m OK.

There are days,
    I am OK.

There will be days,
    I am not OK.

Then there will be days,
    I will be OK.

It’s when my
    brain won’t shut down
        at day’s end,
    I question if I’m OK.

When I thank God,
    count my many blessings,
        I know,
    I am OK.

It’s when I’m left alone,
    I ruminate my day,
        and over think,
    I am not OK.

I try to remain steadfast,
    focused, resilient
        and remind myself,
    I will be OK.


Sometimes,
    nothing seems
            to go right,  
    I question if I’m OK
.

It’s those days,
    it takes all my energy,
        when I lie and say,
    I am OK.

It’s those days,
    I need someone
        to hear my cry and know,
    I am not OK.

Sometimes,
    I just need someone by my side,
        and reassure me,
    I will be OK.

I am here,
    today,
        in my present,
    I question if I’m OK.

I look back,
    at yesterday,
        to my past and see,
    I am OK.

I fear,
    the unknowns of my tomorrows,
        leaving me feeling,
    I am not OK.

I take a deep breath,
    remind myself,
        with faith and trust,
    I will be OK.

Feelings were woven
    into the fabric of my soul,
        even when,
    I question if I’m OK.

God granted me to own my feelings,
    yet remain,
        humble as,
    I am OK.

He reminds me,
    I own all my feelings,
        and not apologize when,
    I am not OK.

With Him by my side,
    I know regardless,
        where my journey takes me,
    I will be OK.