I AM BRokEN

At the start of each day,
    I question if I’m OK.

There are days,
    I am OK.

There will be days,     
    I am not OK.

Then there will be days,
    I will be OK.

It’s when my brain won’t shut down at day’s end,
    I question if I’m OK.

When I thank God,    
    count my many blessings,
        I know,
            I am OK.

It’s when I’m left alone,
    I ruminate my day,
        and over think,
            I am not OK.

I try to remain steadfast,
    focused, resilient
        and remind myself,
            I will be OK.

Sometimes,
    nothing seems to go right,
        I question if I’m OK.

It’s those days,
    it takes all my energy,
        when I lie and say,
            I am OK.

It’s those days,
    I need someone
        to hear my cry and know,
            I am not OK.

Sometimes,
    I just need someone by my side,
        and reassure me,
            I will be OK.

I am here,
    today,
        in my present,
             I question if I’m OK.

I look back,
    at yesterday,
        to my past and see,     
            I am OK.

I fear,
    the unknowns of my tomorrows,
        leaving me feeling,
            I am not OK.

I take a deep breath,
    remind myself,
        with faith and trust,
             I will be OK.

Feelings were woven into the fabric of my soul,
    even when,
        I question if I’m OK.

God granted me to own my feelings,
    yet remain humble as,
        I am OK.

He reminds me,
    I own all my feelings,
        and not apologize when,
            I am not OK.

With Him by my side,
    I know regardless,
        where my journey takes me,
            I will be OK.