RESTING MY RUMINATIONS

With my first breath, my mind freely feels, 
There’s someone laying right next to me,  
Feeling my heart beat in sync with theirs.

I stare at the ceiling fan whirling, 
Absorbing my radiating heat, 
I lay still, as to not stir them awake,

It’s just about three in the morning, 
I am mentally not all present,  
Yet, my body is fully awake.

Still laying in bed, I shut my eyes 
Begging for just another hour, 
So, I won’t be robbed another night.

In one breath, I wish they joined my fight, 
Helping to slay my nightly demons, 
Winning back my lost hours of sleep.

By now they found their way to my mind,  
My nightly guest just won’t go away, 
Telling me, they were just passing through.

I fight my demon, insomnia, 
I ruminate today’s disaster, 
Playing in my mind, an endless loop. 

Feeling their heart beat and their next breath, 
Until my body’s madness succumbs, 
Into silent screams that fade away.

With my last breath, my mind is set free, 
Not even an ounce of energy, 
Until I finally fall asleep.

Ending my night’s tossing and turning, 
I manage a few hours of rest, 
Before the sun welcomes a new day.

It’s on the wings of hope and a dream, 
I start with a prayer of gratitude, 
For today’s better than yesterday.